Thoughts...

It's hard to think that a year has passed since I last posted on my blog. There has def. been a lot of changes in my life! Some good some bad... but mostly good.

Besides the fact that I'm living on my own for the second time, I have also had a lot of spiritual growth more recently then ever. Faith is something God has really been pressing into my spirit lately, he has revealed so much to me that I use to not understand about Faith. I will blog more on that topic soon!!

So basically im feeling very inspired lately by fashion, art, and makeup : )... if u couldnt tell from my facebook page hehe! There is a lot more cool stuff to come, videos and pictures. Right now im trying to invset in a new camera and laptop, i really want a mac book : ).... but whats new with me ill be making the big move to tampa this sat ekk! : ) and ill be applying to the Paul Mitchell School : )

<3 the picture above is one of my fav. artisit stacie orrico!

How many times do we turn our backs...?

well ive turned my back on God to many times : ( ... but his grace was enough to take me back into his awsome love that he has for all who fall at his feet and surrender.

Ive been led astray by many of my selfish actions, but i give my life to God this time and ask him to establish my heart, im done trying to make things on my own.

The world looks so attractive, but its a distortion, its ready to rip the very soul out of every helpless body.

Ive been living to long now in this world and its time to enter a spiritual dwelling place, which jesus has provided for me in his arms. I cant thank him enough for his sacrifce his blood shed for this world.

What I've come to realize...

So I've been doing a lot of thinking and I found in myself that there is a lot I need God to rid me of. Certain events in my life have made this clear to me.

For the past few years of my life, I have lived obliviously, not fully conscious of the affect my actions and behavior have had on my life. I've givin my heart away, Ive lived for others instead of myself, Ive built up jealousy even at times when i wasnt happy with myself and wanted what i didnt have. I mean the list goes on and on.

However, ... more and more everyday its becoming to me that my identity is not what the devil has made me beleive all these years. Hes tricked me and minipulated me to make me think in such depressive spirits i cant even begin to explain.

But by the grace of God, Its been revealed to me that everything that I once was or thought i was is no longer, for my idenity is in christ Jesus and I am a new creature.

Mark Makeup & Fashion

What is true....

tried things, got me no where. lead me to a dark an empty place. my identity has been dissolved into a sorrow that sinks deep into the soil that lays at the surface of every waking minute. My worries cost my life and im left with two pennies and no where to go. must start over, must free my caged mind, must find peace of mind. Anything but these chains that have me locked in a bottomless pit. that have my dreams and thoughts dripping with fears and tears. Lord free me, free me today give me purpose, strip down my fears my worries my doubts. the days roll together one similar to the one before, but i refuse to be suppressed, depressed or repressed. Everyday is another chance! Don't allow me to give up now, let the truth be free in my spirit and let it run through every vain in my body, filling me with life, making me strong for what wars against me.

Unwritten: Seeking My Dreams and Freedom of Expression

I am me. I have what makes me different and unique inside. Not always obvious to the mind, not always clear in my thoughts but definitely inside my spirit i know what makes me turly happy and thats what I seek. I wanna rid myself of any doubts and worries that hinder me from reaching my true peace, my true happiness.... to be continues hungry gotta eat lol